With the added bonus of graduating from school and now not seeing everyone I knew from school, I feel completely alone. Because not only do I not have my boyfriend/best friend anymore, I have no casual friends to just bullshit with. Craziness and I are further apart than ever. Banana and I talk maybe every few weeks. Prissy, it's always the same ol' story. The one person I could always pick up the phone to talk to and have a decent conversation with is gone. He's gone. He's nearby, he's in available reach, but I can't call him any more. I can't see him any more.

So, what is there for me? I have now to rediscover what it's like to be alone. I have to regain the security of doing my own thing and not having basically any friends. I have to be my own best friend once more.

It's something I haven't felt in 3 years. Wow.